Someone's Fussy!

This week has seriously gotten away from me. Everyday that I attempt to update my blog something always comes up. Well Monday Donnie got his 2 month shots, the nurse said he may be fussy for 48 hrs but man I didn't expect for it to be this bad! Tuesday he was fine, slept a lot and was "normal" but when Wednesday rolled around it was like a nightmare. He wouldn't sleep and literally fussed for 3 hours straight. Luckily hubs was off that day but man were we exhausted. I was soo tired that I slept through my doctor's appointment and had to reschedule it for Friday. I seriously tried everything I could think of, rocking him, putting him in his swing, singing to him, walking around the house with him and nothing worked. Today has been a little better but he's still fussy. I sometimes feel like a bad mom because he doesn't seem happy. Somebody tell me that it's just a phase! When does the happy baby stage begin or am I out of luck?

When we went to his 2 month well visit the pediatrician said he was doing fine but I told him he hasn't had a social smile yet. He said it'll probably happen in the next two weeks but since he's a preemie to give him another month for milestones. Sometimes I forget he's considered a preemie, I guess because of his weight but it makes me sad that my baby is considered behind and I equate that with it being my fault. I know him having to come early was out of my control but sometimes I can't help how I feel.

As for his official two month post I plan on doing that asap and I will get it done, given how he's been feeling I haven't had the time nor energy to take his picture in his two month sticky shirt.

Annoucement Cards

I'm finally sending mines out! Donnie will be two months on Monday (where has the time gone?!) and I think it's about time that I send them out to family and friends. I received some "giftcards" when I purchased something from Motherhood Maternity that could be redeemed at Shutterfly.com. Well it was more like you have to spend $20 to get that amount off. I figured I'd use them to order some annoucements. I only ordered about 15 to start because I wanted to see the quality of the cards. So after shipping I only ended up spending $10 (score!). Overall I am pleased with the results, I wanted the annoucement to be simple and modern. I'm pleased with the results, but honestly I think it all comes to the quality of the photo that you use. The picture for the annoucements is from his newborn photoshoot. Okay I kinda find myself rambling lol! I'll be back for his two month post next week!!!

When All Else Fails..

SWADDLE!!! OMG I was at my ropes end yesterday with breastfeeding. Donnie seriously stayed on my boob every hour from 5 am until about 11 pm. Literally every hour I was feeding him. Of course me being a first time mom I immediately thought he was hungry since he was soo fussy. I checked his diaper, and every time when I thought he was finish and he started to doze off he would wake within 30-40 minutes. My mom was over for the weekend so it was great to have someone to pass him off to (hubs was at work). I just couldn't understand why he wasn't sleeping well. So me trying to figure out what was wrong I thought I wasn't producing enough  milk . I was so frustrated and was on the verge of giving up. I've been having this love/hate relationship with breastfeeding. I'm always stressing out wondering if he's getting enough, despite the constant reassurance from my hubs and mom, the amount of wet and dirty diapers. I'm one of those types that have to see how much he's getting to settle my mind. Man I can't wait until his 2 month well visit on the 24th to see his weigh progress. 

Despite the other cues, he was also spitting up so I "knew" something was going in him. Ugh why can't breastfeeding easy? I never knew it required knowing so much. I always thought you just popped your boob in their mouth and they would eat. Or is it really easy and today's society makes it harder than what is should be? Honestly I think it's a little of both. I was talking to my mom who exclusively breastfed me and she kept saying how she didn't remember it being that hard back then. She only had a hand pump (I'm not sure electric ones where available back then) and she fed me just fine. No lactation consultants, no special pills/teas to help with supply, hands free bra's for pumping, boppy's etc. just simply breastfeeding. 

So finally I dropped my worry and said he's fine, I know he isn't starving and instinctt mode came it. I broke out the swaddle rocked him to sleep and he was content. Oh the best four hours of my life! As for today it's been going much better, he's sleeping well and eating good. So I know that with this thing called breastfeeding I must just take it one day at a time.

Wordless Wednesday

Okay maybe a few words! Here's some photos from Donnie's newborn shoot. He was 18 days old!

Happy 2011!!

Happy New Year to my lovely readers! I hope your new year is going great so far! So I'm trying to figure out how to juggle keeping up my blog and tending to a baby. I want to at least post 3x's a week so we will see how this goes! As for what's been going on in our household, all is well. Donnie is eating great except when he gets frustrated. I'm trying to figure out why that is, the milk is coming out but I notice it happens when my nipple gets soft. He's a very impatient baby (aren't they all) and he loves trying to "help" mama out. He seriously likes to hold my breast like a bottle and I have to remind him that I don't need any help and he's actually in the way lol!

I'm  able to write this post due to my lovely hands free pumping bra. I just fed Donnie, he's knocked out and now I'm trying to pump to store extra milk so the hubs can feed the baby as well. On another note, let me tell you about how I brought in the new year. My family had a new year's party and it was so great to get to see them all (I hadn't seen many of them since the 4th of July). Everyone was asking "where is the baby", "how is he sleeping". I only had two people ask how I was doing..which I guess I should get used to ha! It was great to get out the house with the hubs (my mother was at our house watching Donnie by the way), get dressed up and I even had a glass of wine! Yes my first drink since last April. I was seriously buzzed by the second sip. It was nice to have a taste but I honestly don't miss drinking and don't worry I had pump some milk for Donnie before hand, enough to last until the alcohol was out of my system.

Well that's about it..don't you love my all over the place posts?! Sorry, I swear it seems that after my third trimester my train of thought isn't as good. Is that normal? Hopefully it returns and I'm able to write some better posts :)