Back Home and Worried

First let me start off by saying we're home!!! Well kind of, let me explain. Since I'm on all these meds for my blood pressure and to prevent me from having a seizure we are staying at my parents house. Since the baby came so early hubs was only able to take a short time off. My doctor said I needed help during this time so we are staying with my parents for a few weeks until I get off these meds because hubs works long 12-16 hr shifts and I can't be at home by myself for that long. I never imagined any of this would happen, but I'm taking it in stride. As for these meds it's a task in itself. They make me sleepy and weak. I can't breast feed while on them so I've been pumping and dumping to keep my supply up for when I can.

Which brings me to my worrying, I'm scared that once I'm off the meds he won't latch on and I'll have to exclusively pump. I so want to have that connection of him latching on and plus it would be a lot less work. I hate that I have to supplement with formula, it makes me soo upset because I think the longer he's eating it the worse my chances are for him wanting my milk. I do plan on doing a recap of the events leading up to my delivery, but bare with me, I'm adjusting to being a new mommy, I'm having health complications that I'm trying to work out and I had a baby come 5 wks early so I'm trying to play catch up. I will say my support system has been awesome. If you have any advice/words of encouragement/ articles/ links or whatever concerning delayed breastfeeding that would be great. I also want to point out that my sentence structure, grammar and whatever else is probably funky lol due to the meds and lack of sleep.

However one thing is certain when I look at this face it's SOO worth it!!!